another compilation of thoughts of how much of an emotional wreck i am
i
i am so fucking upset
i want to break something
i feel like breaking my bones
i feel like ripping my skin off
i feel like i want to hit myself unconscious
ii
he compares me to a mistake
he sees me as a mistake
he sees me as an incurable disorder
he sees me as crazy
it’s kind of sadness with rage
iii
i get used to myself being alone
i do not search for someone to hug or talk to like before
i search for violence, not help
but it’s too impossible to happen
so i tend to self harm
i am beginning to lose my sanity
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